Today is weigh in day. I have a couple of thoughts on this, and I find myself feeling anxious about "success" and "failure", as it has happened in the past. I know that this is in part to watching "The Biggest Loser", and some of their shocking weight loss accomplishments. The participants, the host, and trainers really celebrate the "double digit" losses. Some of the men on this current season lost over 30 lbs in a week. 30 lbs!!!!! I don't know if my three year old Granddaughter weighs 30 lb! When there is a 5-4-3-2-lb weight loss there is silence...and tears, and "I worked so hard..". Does that mean that the people that lose less are...less than?
I have had success in the past. I went to Jenny Craig when I weighed a whopping 152lbs, I got down it 128lbs for about a day...then up the weight went. The best thing about Jenny Craig is that I did it with my best friend, and after weigh in, we would go to McDonald's and have a burger, then to Diddier's Ice Cream Shop to have a fruit whip thing. Lord it was so good! I have had mixed success the 4 or 5 times I went on Weight Watchers, I took Phen-Phen until it was taken off the market because of the health risks, but I think the best (when I say best, I mean the absolute worst) weight loss program I went on in the past was back in 1988, the bad summer. There was so much turmoil going on that I lost 30+ lbs from June to August. I didn't eat, barely slept, drank more than I ever have in my life, and was under so much stress that not only did I lose weight, my hair fell out! Only on my head though, not the legs, so I still had to shave...darn! I was 26 years old, had two little girls, and my marriage of 8 years was crumbling. I went out of state so when I returned, there was quite a big difference. At the time it wasn't funny, but after returning, I was at the local grocery store, when one of the nosey checkers (very small town, btw) said "Why Kelly, you look great! Did you just get back from a fat farm?"!!!!.
I have to remember what we were told in the first week. Forget past failures, and past successes, everyday is new, and I need to focus on today.
I am still very sore, but planned to get off work in time to have a "last chance workout". Nope...I didn't leave work in time so I got there with enough time to weigh in, and get settled with my team. I was going to do at least 20 - 25 minutes on the elliptical, and if the meeting was sort, finish up the cardio after.
Alright, here goes nothing: I lost 2.8lbs this week, my weight was 221lbs. I was disappointed and felt like I failed. I felt like it should have been more...then I thought wait a minute..I LOST 2.8LBS THIS WEEK! Good for me since my entire goal was 1lb! I worked hard, , and I beat that. Not only that, but for the first time since High School, I worked out every single day, ate good food, slept like a rock, shaved my legs 7 days straight (you're welcome Mark :0}) and although sore, I felt better. All in all:
Two of the guys on my team made the top 10 for men 12, and 10 lbs each.
One gal on my team lost 12.8lbs and was the top loser for the women.
I lost 2.8, the other gal 1, and the other gal was sick all week and didn't begin the program.
My team came in 6th out of 12 teams.
Well done - Joe "D" Bands!
The meeting took about 2 1/2 hours so I didn't get my cardio in. I had a few things to think about though. Our director told us that there is no messing around, that If we don't turn in our exercise and food logs, we will get kicked out of the program, and if we have a team workout scheduled and we miss it for no good reason, we will be kicked out of the program. WE aren't children she reminded us. I did not miss a team work out, but I didn't turn in my food/exercise logs this week. Self sabotage? I talked to my nutritionist and she looked over the log I quickly put together today, and I was doing alright. I skipped a few meals, but I will work on that. The meeting was at 6:00 and I got home at nearly 9:00. I had missed Caitlyn's cheerleader banquet, and it turns out she received an award. I cried because I wasn't there, she told me that what I'm doing now will assure her that I'll be there another time. Thank you Lyndsie for stepping into my shoes. I love my family.
Tomorrow, work out at 7:00....I can't wait!
Kelly
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